Realization.

I don't know how many people read this but I want to get this out into the open.

To go on a mission you need to be a certain weight for your height. I am five feet eleven and a half inches. I'm not going to write the weight but I found out about a month ago (?) that I was too over wight to serve a mission. That I need to lose weight. At first this was devastating! I had a plan and it now had been changed. I planed to send my paper to Salt Lake on the 23 of November. I've had a count down from the "150 days till" And for this to happen hurt so much. I was so mad. Why? Why me? I was trying to make the right choice and I felt like I was being pushed down. There is a reason the weight limit is the way it is but it's posted no where. I'm glad to get that off my chest.I started to work out and eat better. I still feel held back. I try everyday to make the best decision. It's hard and sometimes I feel like the world is agsisnt me. But I have amazing people in my life who are helping me reach this goal.

For while I wasn't sure if a mission is what I should do. But once you ask God to help you, to get down on your knees and pray and to search the scriptures, he will give you the answer! I had so many questions after that. Do I even serve? Should I stay home and go to school? Is that as far as I needed to go? What do I need to do? After reading the scriptures I felt that any choice was a good one. That anyone of them would make me happy. For graduation my mom got me the book called "Oh, The Places You'll Go" By Dr. Seuss. She added a little something to every line in the book. When reading this I truly realized that any one i picked would be a good one. But the best one would be a mission.

My goal is to have my papers done by March 21 2014.

Oh, The Places You'll Go!

You can kinda see the little add ons.

My Dream.

Dreams.
Everyone has them.  About who they want to be. What they want to do with the rest of their lives. Where they wish they could go. How there life could change.

My dream would be to travel to Scotland and all though the UK.
My dream would be to stay in bed all day and watch RomComs.
My dream would be to thin.
My dream would be to be a Early Childhood Education.
My dream would be to be a good mom.
My dream would be to be an amazing writer.
My dream would be to change peoples lives
My dream would be to make a difference.

So, what are yours?

Catch up.

Hey it's me again. Sorry for being gone so long I just didn't think I have time. But the truth is if you want it you'll make time for it. So I'm sorry about not making time for you few readers who really do read this.

Lets start off by catching everyone up. I now work full time at Tim Hortons. (Yay but nah.) My mission papers are on hold. For reasons I don't want to say on the internet. But reasons that have helped me already change my life. So that's been life in the past few months.

Now what I wanted to really tell you all today. I have started to work out every day and eat as best as I can. But this comes with a problem.... I am the only one doing it. Plus Halloween was this past week! It's really hard to make the right food choices when candy and pop and things I shouldn't have are in the house. My rents told me they would help me. But they keep bringing more food in that wont. Its hard and then they get mad when I don't lose and ask how much I cheated. Can't they see that this is hard enough already. At home I feel alone but when I'm out with friends or other people they all help me make better choices. I just want to be healthier. Once I lose more I'll put and before and after. But I can already see a difference!